listening to ambient rock (mogwai, explosions in the sky). thoughts in motion. i feel blah, mellowed by the progress of the day. stuck in a vortex spinning round and round. no way out. just circling life. it gets giddy and i fall down. i struggle to stand, uneasy of the weight that bears me down. raging on, tearing down pieces of you. tired and weary, i rest for i know not how. is this forever? will it change? i hope it does, for it ain't worth living if u ain't got love. redemption song i will sing along. condemned as a tethered mortal strung to life. peace be upon restless souls that survive.