I really want to pursue a Phd. It's not that my blessed with academic brilliance but I know I will be committed to the subject of my calling. I just need to a be a little brave and apply. Not anticipate the repercussions of my decisions but act on my will to believe. Overcoming personal challenges is so hard cause you know your fighting yourself- a self that can let itself down. Love lost- yes, battle won- never. But the point is keep trying, not hoping. But that in itself can become an endless wait, especially when you are an obdurate and stubborn person like me.