mental state examination

i have been condemned for my shortcomings in understanding...it disturbs me and i can't hide behind words...the truth is a bitter pill, difficult to swallow...i've had my share of mistakes and misgivings...but my ego which constitutes the bane of my existence is eating me alive...yet i hope to live to tell the tale...

Puja fever

it's that time of the year when Goddess Mother Durga descends from her heavenly abode and becomes the soul of Kolkata...Kolkata is now throbbing with life and its feverish pulse is infectious...you can feel the air of bated anticipation overwhelm your senses...the blinding street lights and gaudy dressing reveal a carousel of shoppers, revellers and the devout...everyone wants a piece of heaven and i'm no exception...the Puja's are here and i can't wait to immerse myself in its spirit...

it's the simple things that make you smile

...just when i thought i needed some inspiration in my life...SUPRISE SUPRISE!!! i have been gifted with a crayon set and drawing book to let all my creative urges burst into art...

pinoo-my soulful lover-my deepest gratitude-you truly understand the need for artistic freedom in our humdrum lives...

Trams

...tram journeys are a wonderful way to experience the cityscape of Kolkata...it is my preferred way of travelling in the city...i look for the slightest opportunity to ride them, knowing fully well i will reach my desired destination late...sitting in the old wodden chairs with the stale air surrounding me, i am transported in time...thoughts flow and my mind breathes...the tram meanders through some of the oldest parts of the city...the delapidated buildings are coloured with the signs of decay and degeneration...yet the aura of the human spirit prevails...Kolkata might be a shit-hole to many, but it sure feels like Home to me...:)

getting serious

i have started reading Frontline magazine again after a gap of more than a year...it's a magazine i want to read cover to cover, edition to edition in the hope of broadening my worldview...but it is just so pedantic that it makes for stressful reading...

irony

.........it's only when you lose yourself that you find yourself.........

........change is the only constant in our life...........

random thoughts in a bus

the wodden bus slowly rambled along the crowded streets of Kolkata, giving me much needed time think about my 'double life'...i am caught in a strange life-situation, one which is difficult to comprehend in words...i feel i am two different persons yet all the same...at day i am trying to be a social worker and in the evening i morphe into a social butterfly...my social universe is so different from the reality i struggle to grapple with...my privileged upbringing has alienated me from the difficult ways of life that exist on the streets...it's almost like an entire sea of humanity is hidden from our genteel eyes...our life experiences are so limited and finite...you move in a circle of friends and family that you sometimes cannot relate to...class barriers and its attendant sentimentality prevent us from exploring life in its broadest canvas...in the pursuit of the 'good life', a completeness of being is lost, diverse walks of life remain untrodden...hopefully my calling will prove different...

Happiness

no feeling can be more welcoming after a long day at work than a street dog greeting you with its waging tail...such unconditional affection is hard to come by...
thank you Hum:)

timepass

Take the first alphabet of your name and answer the following:
(The trick is to be quick with your replies...)
Your Name: Nidhi
Famous Artist/Band/Musician: New Kids on the Block (the original boyband!)
A Song/Piece: Never Forget by Take That
Word: Necrophilia
Color: Night blue
Gifts/Presents: Necklace
Vehicle: Nano
Animal: Neelgai antelope
TV Show: Nach Baliye
Location: Niagra Falls
Boy Name: Nitish
Girl Name: Nitu
Drink: Nimbu pani
Occupation: Neuro-surgeon
Sport: Net ball (google zindabad!)
Flower: Narcissus (sounds good)
Celebrity: Nicole Ritche
Food: Noodles
Reason for Being Late: Never catch the bus on time
Character: Nancy Drew
Something found in a Kitchen: no idea!
Something You Shout: Night out...(to my parents)
Store: Next